I’ve lost my love
I’ve lost my love. He has gone to heaven way too soon. It’s been a little over a month since our lives were forever changed. We went to sleep together and only I awoke the next morning. I want to forever remember that he loved me. That he was right next to me when God called him. I want to be comforted by that. Although at this moment all I feel is lost. All I feel is devastated. How do I go on from here? Where do I go on from here? I felt like we were finally figuring it all out. We were just starting to live in his dream home together all together. We only had 11 years together, it’s just not enough time. I want more.
He was thrilled beyond words at becoming a grandfather. Damon was the light of his life. Along with being the only father my daughter has known. He relished becoming a granddad. He took on the roll of father to my daughter since the time she was 9 years old. And even when he and I stumbled, he never once forgot to be her doting dad. I will never get the chance to thank him. I mean I did but just not enough. He had asked me over and over to adopt her and I didn’t do it. I just assumed we would marry and after that we would get it done. Now we will never have that chance. Our time is gone. Why did I just assume we had forever?
He was only 37 years old. I just assumed we had so much more time. I don’t know why this has happened. I have no answers to so many questions. Even when the autopsy report does come back what good will that do. It’s just too late to change anything.
Our life is shattered and we must now pick up the pieces.
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